It's time to stop creation. All that arises within thoughts is abuse, separation and deception. Within thoughts, feelings and emotions we mess with and destruct true self value. Earth is the Test that stands before Man of Becoming Self Honesty equal and one as all Here in fact - as who we really are to Birth Self as Life in the Physical as Breath. Physics are going to play a vital role in self transformation in the physical.
maandag 17 december 2012
zondag 16 december 2012
2012 Awareness as self in application stands alone, all-one
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woensdag 12 december 2012
donderdag 18 oktober 2012
"I am not good enough" Character Forgiveness & Commitments
by Sunette
Spies
THOUGHT Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
THOUGHT Dimension: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain ONE THOUGHT where I see myself "struggling" with starting something new, like, in the ONE THOUGHT, already seeing the end-result of me failing/not being good enough in what I am about start/that I have just started, not seeing, realising and understand how I am accepting and allowing a THOUGHT, one THOUGHT to decide who I am, when I haven't even given ME the benefit of the doubt and actually yet even properly started this something new I am facing, I mean, what does this then say about my relationship to MYSELF with me not even giving myself the opportunity to start something and get it done???
THOUGHT Dimension Commitment: I commit myself to assist and support me, when and as I see A THOUGHT come up in my mind, especially when/as I am facing/starting something new and that thought in any way stand within the context of 'I'm not good enough', I stop and breathe and simply continue practising/perfecting my skill in what I am starting/doing as the living statement of me of no more accepting and allowing One Thought to determine/decide who I am with starting something new.
FEAR Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
FEAR Dimension Forgiveness: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the source/root as experience/relationship of Fear to/as the I'm Not Good Enough Character/Personality, where this fear in itself had become like a part of me, haunting me with the all-encompassing presence of me not succeeding in something that I'm about to start, or even while I am starting, that this demon of me starts creeping through the cracks of the foundation of who I am in the physical that I have accepted and allowed to manifest; and so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the starting point of me, with starting something new, to be a fear of not succeeding, or living up to my own possible/probable expectations, not seeing, realising and understanding that the starting point of me will determine me and my living, and so with accepting and allowing such a fear as me: this is what I will become/be
FEAR Dimension Commitments: I commit myself to assist and support myself when/as I face learning something new and I detect in ANY WAY whatsoever that I am reacting to myself/this new thing - to Breathe and say to myself "I AM DOING THIS" and not accept and allow the demon of fear to drag me into the hell of the Mind of "I'm not good eough" as I will no more accept and allow the Mind/my past demons to tell me who I am/define who I am - I, here in the moment of application decide who I am, and by God - I'm going to do it and get it done (lol)
IMAGINATION Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
IMAGINATION Dimension Forgiveness: I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I would within and as my own Mind as Imagination, validate/justify/excuse this I'm not good enough character/personality, through keeping myself in my imagination in a mind-loop - over and over and over again seeing myself not good enough/failing/giving up/struggling, not seeing, realising and understanding the more I continue participating in the imagination, instead of waking up out of it and getting things done, I am manifesting my imagination as me and so it will become my reality, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my imagination more power than my actual physical living
IMAGINATION Dimension Commitments: I commit myself to assist and support myself to when/as I see my imagination in any way manifesting/coming up with failure/not being good enough, especially when facing something new/starting something new - to immediate stop, say NO and move my attention/awareness to REALITY in paying attention to my skill/application in the PHYSICAL as I see, realise and understand the more I participate in the imagination, the more I am giving energy to the Mind and the less I am actually contributing to myself/my living here and will so no more accept/allow imagination to decide who I am as I will myself to move myself into and as actual, physical, practical, real application
BACKCHAT Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
BACKCHAT Dimension Forgiveness: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go even further into and as my mind to the point where my demon of/as me as energy/mind takes over and starts voicing itself as "fuck it" /"you're not going to make it" / "stop embarrasing yourself" / "there's many more that's better than you, so why even try" - like, me as my own demon, demonizing myself in my own mind sabotaging and compromising me, my living, my opportunity here that I didn't even give a chance to/for, within this essentially questioning why it is that I would so readily simply fall into the Mind, than give ME an opportunity to find out WHO I AM within/as what I do; and so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend so much time talking shit in my Head, rather than LIVING for REAL, HERE
BACKCHAT Dimension Commitment: I commit myself to assist and support me, to when and as I start talking myself down/out of an opportunity to challenge, expand, learn and grow with facing something new/starting something new - to stop the voices in the head through breathing, and re-state who I am as "Hey, I'm only starting now, I'm not going to listen to this bullshit, I'm giving me the opportunity to expand learn and grow" and so I then align my reality in such a way in stages/phases of progression and make it practical and give myself a process of advancing/perfecting a skill in the physical
PHYSICAL/BEHAVIOUR Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
PHYSICAL/BEHAVIOUR Dimension Forgiveness: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have my Mind/Energy as Personality take-over/possess my Behaviour/Physical mannerism, like completely locking me into a I'm not good enough condition, instead of me actually having moved myself to start the something New - not seeing, realising and understanding the extent to which I'm accepting and allowing the Mind to control my Physical, instead of me actually living in/as it
PHYSICAL/BEHAVIOUR Dimension Commitment: I commit myself to assist/support me to when/as I am not actually physically starting and seeing it through, but already beforehand accept/allow the Mind/Energy to take over/manipulate my physical to the point of NOT MOVING, to STOP and BREATHE and physically move me to GET STARTED and not become incapacitated by the Mind
You may find with starting something new and seeing it through, or even any One Thing in your life and it's simply really not assisting/supporting self/self's living in this world/reality - to really consider that this one thing may not be the point self is to align with, that there may be other skills to consider where self can contribute to. In this, there may be things you WANT/DESIRE to do, but us not in reality, with who you are and your position in this life the point that would be practical for you to do.
So, in all this, it's about self-honesty, commonsense deduction and really looking at self, self's life/living
So, make a real self-honest assessment of yourself, what you're good at, what's your skills, what do you enjoy, what are you comfortable with and from there branch out - see if there is something you're interested in and requires a skills, can you develop that skill in reality and are you willing, then within all of this -GO FOR IT
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THOUGHT Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
THOUGHT Dimension: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain ONE THOUGHT where I see myself "struggling" with starting something new, like, in the ONE THOUGHT, already seeing the end-result of me failing/not being good enough in what I am about start/that I have just started, not seeing, realising and understand how I am accepting and allowing a THOUGHT, one THOUGHT to decide who I am, when I haven't even given ME the benefit of the doubt and actually yet even properly started this something new I am facing, I mean, what does this then say about my relationship to MYSELF with me not even giving myself the opportunity to start something and get it done???
THOUGHT Dimension Commitment: I commit myself to assist and support me, when and as I see A THOUGHT come up in my mind, especially when/as I am facing/starting something new and that thought in any way stand within the context of 'I'm not good enough', I stop and breathe and simply continue practising/perfecting my skill in what I am starting/doing as the living statement of me of no more accepting and allowing One Thought to determine/decide who I am with starting something new.
FEAR Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
FEAR Dimension Forgiveness: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the source/root as experience/relationship of Fear to/as the I'm Not Good Enough Character/Personality, where this fear in itself had become like a part of me, haunting me with the all-encompassing presence of me not succeeding in something that I'm about to start, or even while I am starting, that this demon of me starts creeping through the cracks of the foundation of who I am in the physical that I have accepted and allowed to manifest; and so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the starting point of me, with starting something new, to be a fear of not succeeding, or living up to my own possible/probable expectations, not seeing, realising and understanding that the starting point of me will determine me and my living, and so with accepting and allowing such a fear as me: this is what I will become/be
FEAR Dimension Commitments: I commit myself to assist and support myself when/as I face learning something new and I detect in ANY WAY whatsoever that I am reacting to myself/this new thing - to Breathe and say to myself "I AM DOING THIS" and not accept and allow the demon of fear to drag me into the hell of the Mind of "I'm not good eough" as I will no more accept and allow the Mind/my past demons to tell me who I am/define who I am - I, here in the moment of application decide who I am, and by God - I'm going to do it and get it done (lol)
IMAGINATION Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
IMAGINATION Dimension Forgiveness: I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I would within and as my own Mind as Imagination, validate/justify/excuse this I'm not good enough character/personality, through keeping myself in my imagination in a mind-loop - over and over and over again seeing myself not good enough/failing/giving up/struggling, not seeing, realising and understanding the more I continue participating in the imagination, instead of waking up out of it and getting things done, I am manifesting my imagination as me and so it will become my reality, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my imagination more power than my actual physical living
IMAGINATION Dimension Commitments: I commit myself to assist and support myself to when/as I see my imagination in any way manifesting/coming up with failure/not being good enough, especially when facing something new/starting something new - to immediate stop, say NO and move my attention/awareness to REALITY in paying attention to my skill/application in the PHYSICAL as I see, realise and understand the more I participate in the imagination, the more I am giving energy to the Mind and the less I am actually contributing to myself/my living here and will so no more accept/allow imagination to decide who I am as I will myself to move myself into and as actual, physical, practical, real application
BACKCHAT Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
BACKCHAT Dimension Forgiveness: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go even further into and as my mind to the point where my demon of/as me as energy/mind takes over and starts voicing itself as "fuck it" /"you're not going to make it" / "stop embarrasing yourself" / "there's many more that's better than you, so why even try" - like, me as my own demon, demonizing myself in my own mind sabotaging and compromising me, my living, my opportunity here that I didn't even give a chance to/for, within this essentially questioning why it is that I would so readily simply fall into the Mind, than give ME an opportunity to find out WHO I AM within/as what I do; and so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend so much time talking shit in my Head, rather than LIVING for REAL, HERE
BACKCHAT Dimension Commitment: I commit myself to assist and support me, to when and as I start talking myself down/out of an opportunity to challenge, expand, learn and grow with facing something new/starting something new - to stop the voices in the head through breathing, and re-state who I am as "Hey, I'm only starting now, I'm not going to listen to this bullshit, I'm giving me the opportunity to expand learn and grow" and so I then align my reality in such a way in stages/phases of progression and make it practical and give myself a process of advancing/perfecting a skill in the physical
PHYSICAL/BEHAVIOUR Dimension Forgiveness & Commitments
PHYSICAL/BEHAVIOUR Dimension Forgiveness: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have my Mind/Energy as Personality take-over/possess my Behaviour/Physical mannerism, like completely locking me into a I'm not good enough condition, instead of me actually having moved myself to start the something New - not seeing, realising and understanding the extent to which I'm accepting and allowing the Mind to control my Physical, instead of me actually living in/as it
PHYSICAL/BEHAVIOUR Dimension Commitment: I commit myself to assist/support me to when/as I am not actually physically starting and seeing it through, but already beforehand accept/allow the Mind/Energy to take over/manipulate my physical to the point of NOT MOVING, to STOP and BREATHE and physically move me to GET STARTED and not become incapacitated by the Mind
You may find with starting something new and seeing it through, or even any One Thing in your life and it's simply really not assisting/supporting self/self's living in this world/reality - to really consider that this one thing may not be the point self is to align with, that there may be other skills to consider where self can contribute to. In this, there may be things you WANT/DESIRE to do, but us not in reality, with who you are and your position in this life the point that would be practical for you to do.
So, in all this, it's about self-honesty, commonsense deduction and really looking at self, self's life/living
So, make a real self-honest assessment of yourself, what you're good at, what's your skills, what do you enjoy, what are you comfortable with and from there branch out - see if there is something you're interested in and requires a skills, can you develop that skill in reality and are you willing, then within all of this -GO FOR IT
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donderdag 20 september 2012
woensdag 18 april 2012
2012: Weerstand tegen Verandering
Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf heb toegestaan en aanvaard heb mezelf niet te realiseren dat weerstand tegen verandering wijst op de controle van de geaccepteerde en toegestane patronen van mijn huidige gelimiteerde versie van mij als eigenbelang dat de ruimte en tijd in beslag neemt waarvan ik me realiseer dat ik moet veranderen om dat te worden wat het beste is voor alle leven als mij in het deel dat ik ben als deelname in het huidige geaccepteerde geheel als het ene systeem dat bestaat als mensheid en deze wereld.
Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik zoveel nadruk heb geplaatst op de ideëen die ik heb gebaseerd op de geestelijke realiteit, dat ik nooit de moeite heb genomen uit te vinden hoe systemen van acceptatie feitelijk fysiek worden en ruimte tijd in beslag neem om te controleren wat ik heb toegestaan te zijn/worden.
Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf de geautomatiseerde zelf als de integrale geestelijke patronen heb toegestaan en aanvaard heb die de geaccepteerde versie van mij is geworden om het fysiek te runnen als de idee van mij ongeacht van het feit dat het zou deelnemen als mij zonder de inachtneming van wat het beste is voor alle leven.
Ik vergeef mezelf dat door dit ik een actief deel ben geweest in het toestaan van een systeem van misbruik op aarde voort laten bestaan omdat ik zoveel nadruk heb gelegd op hoe ik me voel dat ik elke verandering zag als een dreiging naar mij gewoon omdat het een ervaring van weerstand is om ongeldig te zijn omdat het me comprimiteert in het in controle te voelen zijn en te ervaren alsof ik enige waarde heb bereikt zonder in overweging te nemen dat wat ik voel niet geldig is totdat alle leven gelijk wordt ondersteund op elke manier.
Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf heb toegestaan en aanvaard heb geketend te raken door mijn voorprogrammering en dat ik geweigerd heb om te overwegen dat wanneer ik aan de ketting van mijn voorprogrammering trek dat het dan weerstand zal bieden omdat ik de voorprogrammering boei voor boei moet ontketenen totdat ik het hele systeem doorheb voordat ik het kan veranderen met een nieuw systeem dat het beste is voor alle leven op elke manier.
Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf heb toegestaan en aanvaard heb de ketenen van mijn voorprogrammering te proberen te repareren door uit te kijken naar snelle reparaties wat zou betekenen dat ik niet de hele weg hoef te gaan met het verwijderen van wat niet het beste is voor alle leven omdat ik gewoonweg de delen kon vervangen die ik nodig achtte zonder in acht te nemen dat tenzij ik in feite elk deel onerzoek, ik nooit zeker kan zijn dat ik doe wat het beste is voor iedereen en terwijl ik het aan het doen ben, om zeker te zijn, zou ik alle ketenen moeten verwijderen en op die manier ben ik zeker en dus voorkom ik een herhaling van een dergelijke vorm van geketend bestaan dat slechts boeien op anderen kan plaatsen, toch zou dit mij ook zijn omdat ik als anderen ben in een ander leven.
Ik vergeef mzelf dat ik mezelf niet heb toegestaan en aanvaard heb om te zien dat mezelf naar vrijheid schrijven betekent mezelf naar vrijheid Schrijven op een praktische fysieke manier.
Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf heb toegestaan en aanvaard heb om gedomineerd te worden door mijn onwetendheid over hoe de realiteit functioneert door de acceptatie van de geest als de ketting die de kettingreactie controleert en juist omdat deze kettingreactie niet meteen tot consequentie leidt heb ik geweigerd te zien hoe actie en reactie/oorzaak en effect in werkelijkheid creëert wat we als deze realiteit hebben geaccepteerd.
Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf heb toegestaan en aanvaard heb het acceptabel te vinden dat anderen lijden door het effect dat ik veroorzaak terwijl ik mijn prioriteiten aan het uitzoeken ben zonder te kijken dat op dit moment, terwijl ik druk ben, een ander in de postie is die sneller zal verbeteren als ik gelijk handel en met steunende consistentie totdat wat het beste voor alle leven hier i s op elke manier.
dinsdag 10 april 2012
2012: Het huidige systeem is verwerpelijk en het Basisinkomensysteem
Op het einde wilde ik het met mijn vader nog even hebben over (mijn blogs over) het Basisinkomensysteem waar hij de vorige keer dat ik hem sprak zo fel op reageerde. Voordat hij weg wilde zei ik nog aan ze dat ik bij de Basisinkomengroep zit. Toen konden mijn vader en ik dus allebei ons zegje doen waarbij hij zei dat het huidige systeem verwerpelijk is. Aha! Dit opende (voor mij) perspectieven dat we daar over kunnen spreken - ja we willen altijd graag on speaking terms blijven en het niet persoonlijk gaan spelen - de vele angst / verwarring die tussen mijn vader en mij heeft bestaan overstijgen door het realiseren van een gelijkheidsrelatie.
Hij zei dat het basisinkomensysteem niet had gefunctioneerd in Noord-Korea en Rusland - dit moet ik dus even onderzoeken. Vraag ik (mij) gelijk: waarom niet? Hij wilde weg, maar ik wilde hier in dit moment uitkomen, anders wordt het telefoneren en dat werkt niet al te best voor ons. Want het is niet praktisch als het basisinkomensysteem van de tafel wordt geveegd door wat er in het verleden in de mensheid kan zijn voorgevallen. Dus al gauw realiseerde ik me - zag ik mezelf - dat het te maken moet hebben met deze twee landen een cultuur hebbende die gebaseerd is op geleid worden (i.p.v. van onszelf te leiden Hier als gelijken) - en dan in grotere mate dan hier in Nederland bijvoorbeeld (waar mensen zich ook laten leiden door het systeem / gedachten al hebben de meesten dat niet door nog.)
Verder weet ik niet of de Basisinkomensystemen in genoemde landen onvoorwaardelijk van aard waren. Ook zal het Basisinkomensysteem nog niet perfect zijn want het wordt gefundeerd in het kapitalisme en zal dus nog gegrond zijn in misdaad tegen de menselijkheid. Het Gelijkheids Geldsysteem zal niets kapitalistisch meer in zich hebben -- alleen Leven Hier waarderen en zelf-funderend en zelf-ondersteunend zijn. Zie voor volledige uitleg www.eqafe.com
Het belangrijkste punt voor mijn proces van zelfrealisatie en zelfoprechtheid één en gelijk als alles worden is dat het voor mij meerdere punten om te verwijderen opent, want mijn hele leven zowat verwerp / neem ik niets aan van dit systeem (stiekem / stilletjes in mezelf / zelfonoprecht). Ik zei dan in mezelf heel vaak "ik ga niet accoord". Evenwel is dit systeem blijven bestaan want ik heb niets gedaan als dan het verwerpelijk te vinden = stilzwijgend accepteren. Ja ineens zag ik dat ik dit systeem van mijn vader heb geërfd. Kijk - wij zijn het systeem, dus zijn wij ei-gelijk verwerpelijk, want wij hebben dit systeem toegestaan en aanvaard. Dit is nou precies mijn ervaring van kinds af aan "dat niemand verantwoordelijkheid nam voor wat hij / zij deed" en we maar dingen / mesnsen buiten zef blijven blameren. Want hoe bestaan we met elkaar? Hou van je buurman als jezelf (ECHTE LIEFDE) is ver te zoeken. Nee geeneens zien dat we onszelf zien in andere, in plaats daarvan het gaan bevechten (denken) en projecteren als we ons niet zo mooie zelf zien in anderen. Ik pas zelfvergeving toe op alle punten / systemen in mij die zich hierdoor openden, want wat in mijn vader is, is in mij. Immers de zonden / persoonlijkheden van de vaders en moeders zijn overgedragen en heb ik gecopieërd en gedupliceerd.
Waar het in de mensheid als in mijn relaties met mensen / wezens om gaat is het het vestigen van gelijkheidsrelaties om zo zelf te kunnen veranderen, wat door weerklank alles zal veranderen.
Tot zover.
dinsdag 3 april 2012
2012: Echte 'duurzame' / 'groene' economie alleen mogelijk in het Gelijkheids Geldsysteem
Zonder duurzaamheid is er straks geen economische en sociale welvaart. Duurzaamheid wordt onderdeel van ons dagelijks leven. Groene stroom, groene auto’s, groene banen. Maar voor een goedlopende groene economie moet duurzaamheid wel geïntegreerd worden in ons onderwijssysteem!
Teken deze petitie* en geef een stem aan de Groene Generatie. Voor groen onderwijs, voor groene banen, voor groene werkgevers en voor een groene toekomst.
Om ons uit de 'groene' droom te helpen... een begin.
'Groen 'is Big Business -- een andere wortel die ons wordt voorgehouden door de Kapitalistische / Happiness Machine die ons als de Aarde zal vernietigen, mits we het niet stoppen. Dus klaarheid geboden over wat 'een groene economie' eigenlijk is.
| 'Groen' is geld, 'groen' is geen oplossing. |
Om te beginnen wil ik hier even kijken naar het woord 'duurzaamheid'. Waar hebben we het dan over? Dat producten lang meegaan, dat we verantwoordelijk omgaan met alles wat Hier is? Welke is de definitie van het woord 'duurzaamheid'? We hebben elk een andere inhoud / gedachte bij het woord duurzaamheid. Hierover zijn we het niet eens - dus laten we eerst de defintie en herdefinitie die het beste is voor alle leven van het woord bepalen, want op het ogenblijk heeft het een 'postieve' lading / waarde gekregen in dit systeem, terwijl dit fenomeen / gedachte / idee op grote schaal wordt uitgebuit / aangezwengeld door Groot Geld. Zie maar wie er mee komen: de energiegiganten, die handlangers zijn van de oliehoudende maatschappijen en vriendjes met de petrochemsiche industrie. Juist het stelletje dat niet staat voor 'groen' - of zoals ik zou zeggen voor het beste voor Alle Leven op Aarde. Dus - kunnen we dat vertrouwen? NEE, niets in en van deze wereld kunnen we vertrouwen, omdat alles (wijzelf incluis) is gebaseerd op het winst -verlies propaganda wat niets heeft te maken met wat het beste is voor iedereen.
Dan hebben we het woord 'groen' dat aan alle kanten te pas en te onpas wordt gebruikt om er een schijnbare richting mee aan te geven. Let wel - de connotatie 'groen' is een perceptie. Zelfs een boom die we als groen ervaren, is slechst groen omdat wij dat zo ervaren met onze menselijke ogen. De stelling "GEEN GROEN, GEEN POEN'' duidt duidelijk op winstbejag en niet op werkelijke verandering van hoe wij de dingen doen. "Geen groen, geen poen" duist op een lieering met geld terwijl het toch niet met iets buiten jezelf van doen zou moeten hebben waarom we iets (niet) doen, m.a.w. dat wij zelf hier staan voor het beste en dat niet geld een motivator moet zijn om 'groen' te gaan.
Alles wordt perfect zo georchestreerd door de elite om je bezig te houden in de geest (gedachten, gevoelens en emoties) en maar niet te zien wat er werkelijk gaande is.
Ik zou het woord 'groene economie' willen vervangen voor 'praktisch gezond verstand economie'.
Ik begrijp wel wat degenen die dit promoten willen, alleen petities zullen geen uitkomst brengen. Zelfverandering en algehele verandering van het economische systeem naar en als het Gelijkheids Geldsysteem zal het Begin zijn van echte duurzaamheid en een gezond verstand economie, daarmee sociale welvaart omdat alles voor iedereen beschikbaar zal zijn en achterlijke systemen als competitie en concurrentie niet meer zullen bestaan.
Word wakker! We zijn niet groen, we zijn geen aliens, we zijn van de Aarde. In werkelijkheid is de Zon onze vader en is de Aarde onze Moeder.
2012: Uit het Nieuws | Boom moet om voor bier - Bewijs krankzinnige mens
Gezond verstand is dat je je realiseert dat we leven na leven hier terugkeren - en als we niet de weg voorbereiden voor degenen die onze ouders zullen worden - zijn we goed verneukt.
Bomen zijn momenteel in effectiviteit meer waard dan mensen. Mensen zijn waardeloos geworden en voelen zich ook zo door het huidige geldsysteem waar we al naargelang door zijn gehersenspoeld. Bomen leveren zuurstof, zetten kooldioxide om en staan gelijk aan en als elkaar. Mensen hier op Aarde vooralsnog produceren alleen stront via woorden te spreken zonder gewaarwording wat er gezegd wordt en ... via de bekende weg. Door niet samen te leven en werken met alles en iedereen gelijk.
Stop jezelf, stop de ondergang van de mensheid voor geld en andere verslavingen en ben EEN stem voor Basisinkomen en Gelijk Geld.
Zelfverandering en systeemverandering
Zelfrealisatie: Ik realiseer me dat ik mezelf 'omzaag', 'vermoord' door de participatie in gedachten en emoties in plaats van de kwaadheid om te zetten in daden als schrijven, zelfvergeving, zelfcorrectie en zelfapplicatie om samen te werken en studeren om een nieuw economisch systeem tot stand te brengen.
Ik pas zelfvergeving toe op de emoties die opkomen als ik zulke berichtgevingen hoor of zie op de tv en/ of in de krant:
Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mijn hele leven al razend wordt als er een boom om moet ten behoeve van mensen hun hebzucht en achterlijkheid.
Wanneer en als ik mezelf realiseer razend te worden als er een boom om moet ten behoeve van mensen hun hebzucht en achterlijkheid - stop ik, adem ik - ik sta mezelf niet toe razend te worden als er een boom om moet, omdat ik mezelf realiseer dat ik mezelf niet toepas / stuur, maar gedirigeerd / gestuurd wordt door gedachten en emoties. In plaats - blijf ik hier in en als de adem als alles als één en gelijk en stuur mezelf als mijn woorden om zelfverandering te realiseren.
Wanneer iets je aan het denken zet, is het een valstrik die je voor jezelf hebt gezet. Je moet het omzetten in daden, anders verandert er niets en eindig je nog als filosoof in plaats van een levend wezen.
~Bernard Poolman
zaterdag 31 maart 2012
2012: Acid - basic body balance - Test our body effectivity
Feeling is as + ('positively' charge)
Within the realisation that acidity is a superfluous amount of unattached H- electrons - I can see that the main factor for the body to get acidic is through participation in emotions deriving from thoughts. Therefore - I go on with applying myself within self honesty, self forgiveness of thoughts, feelings and emotions, self corrective statements and self change.
Because it is within sounding my self forgiveness aloud that I release the crystallized manifestations from within my human physical body.
Self interest has been build over the years within and as the human physical body. Purify self / body from self interest.
A pH value above 7.5 indicates that the body is too alkaline (basic). This occurs comparatively not much.
7.5 : ideal (equal)
7.0 : fairly well
6.5 : acidosis and calcium deficiency
6.0 : extreme degree of acidosis and calcium deficiency
(pH saliva test strips - source: Vitamin store Utrecht)
I did the test and I got a 6.5 - so I have to apply myself within sounding my SF next to applying physical matters to elevate my pH. I take supplements of Lithothamnium which is a algue calcium, Ca2+, which has a group whereto two acidic H- ions can attach so that the acidity diminishes.
I look at, within each meal, to eat both acid formative food and basic / alkaline formative foods. With lunch, Essene (glutenfree) bread I drink vegetable juice. Before each meal I load myself up with a lot of water, which I am doing for most of my life. My mom got angry with me doing that - I guess she feared me not eating - as was in my teens indeed a huge problem within me. So - issues around food are in most people extensive.
Till so far...
donderdag 29 maart 2012
2012: Aarde absorbeert de energie van de geest / mind
Aarde is Geboorte
Vandaag bespraken Ingrid Schaefer en ik:
Positief wordt negatief + > -
Negatief wordt negatief - > -
Normaal gesproken beschouwt men de spanning van de aarde (onder onze voeten) als zijnde 0 Volt.
Dat het positive negatief wordt komt door het verval -- het is niet stabiel -- het is een polareit evenals negatief. Negatief vervalt niet -- negatief is negatief.
In de menselijke geest kunnen we postief zien als de gevoelens die we ervaren en negateof als de emoties die we ervaren -- - beide worden gegenereerd of wel voorafgegaan door de participatie in / mte gedachten. Met andere woorden, onze gedachten LEVEREN DE ENERGIE WAARDOOR DE MATRIX BESTAAT. Gedachten ademen niet en zijn dus geen leven!!!
Vandaar het instabiele wat we in onszelf als op wereldniveau ervaren en waarom het van algemeen belang is dat we onszelf stabiliseren en Aarden / Geboren worden door middel van vergeving van gedachten , gevoelens en emoties om Hier te afdalen in het Fysiek.
Herdefiniëren van woorden: 'Aarde'
"Aarde' is 'Geboorte' -- in proces, mijn 'Aarde' is mijn Adem, als ik Adem voor Adem wandel binnenin de stand van mezelf om mezelf te ondersteunen / assisteren als Bewustzijn / Geest in / als een Levend Wezen dat uitdrukt door / met / als mijn fysieke lichaam, waar deze 'geborenwording' is hoe ik mezelf wandel als Energie / Bewustzijn en mezelf terugbreng naar mijn oorspong als het Fysiek / Aarde van waar ik gekomen ben, dat is het proces van 'geboren worden' -- terugkeren naar de bron, de gemanifesteerde gelijkheid en eenheid van het Fysieke dat Aarde / deze Fysieke Existentie is.
Als ik realiseer dat ik afgescheiden ben geworden van mij als dit fysieke, deze Aarde - Aard / Baar ik mezelf door adem voor adem te wandelen, door mezelf als Bewustzijn / Geest, en adem voor adem mij teruggeef als energie in / als het Fysiek, totdat Ik hier sta met mij als het Fysieke / Aarde als mijn oorsprong / bron - en zo zal Ik Leven, in ere, respecterend, overwegende / ziende alles dat Mij is als gelijkheid / eenheid als het Fysiek / Aarde en een levend voorbeeld wordt voor degenen van Bewustzijn / Energie om terug te geven aan zichzelf, aan de Aarde / het Fysieke door zichzelf te baren, adem voor adem. Totdat we allen terugkeren tot onszelf, tot de Aarde / het Fysiek en Leven baren - een fysiek bestaan waar allen in feite in / als gelijkheid en eenheid leven.
Positief wordt negatief + > -
Negatief wordt negatief - > -
Normaal gesproken beschouwt men de spanning van de aarde (onder onze voeten) als zijnde 0 Volt.
Dat het positive negatief wordt komt door het verval -- het is niet stabiel -- het is een polareit evenals negatief. Negatief vervalt niet -- negatief is negatief.
In de menselijke geest kunnen we postief zien als de gevoelens die we ervaren en negateof als de emoties die we ervaren -- - beide worden gegenereerd of wel voorafgegaan door de participatie in / mte gedachten. Met andere woorden, onze gedachten LEVEREN DE ENERGIE WAARDOOR DE MATRIX BESTAAT. Gedachten ademen niet en zijn dus geen leven!!!
Vandaar het instabiele wat we in onszelf als op wereldniveau ervaren en waarom het van algemeen belang is dat we onszelf stabiliseren en Aarden / Geboren worden door middel van vergeving van gedachten , gevoelens en emoties om Hier te afdalen in het Fysiek.
Herdefiniëren van woorden: 'Aarde'
"Aarde' is 'Geboorte' -- in proces, mijn 'Aarde' is mijn Adem, als ik Adem voor Adem wandel binnenin de stand van mezelf om mezelf te ondersteunen / assisteren als Bewustzijn / Geest in / als een Levend Wezen dat uitdrukt door / met / als mijn fysieke lichaam, waar deze 'geborenwording' is hoe ik mezelf wandel als Energie / Bewustzijn en mezelf terugbreng naar mijn oorspong als het Fysiek / Aarde van waar ik gekomen ben, dat is het proces van 'geboren worden' -- terugkeren naar de bron, de gemanifesteerde gelijkheid en eenheid van het Fysieke dat Aarde / deze Fysieke Existentie is.
Als ik realiseer dat ik afgescheiden ben geworden van mij als dit fysieke, deze Aarde - Aard / Baar ik mezelf door adem voor adem te wandelen, door mezelf als Bewustzijn / Geest, en adem voor adem mij teruggeef als energie in / als het Fysiek, totdat Ik hier sta met mij als het Fysieke / Aarde als mijn oorsprong / bron - en zo zal Ik Leven, in ere, respecterend, overwegende / ziende alles dat Mij is als gelijkheid / eenheid als het Fysiek / Aarde en een levend voorbeeld wordt voor degenen van Bewustzijn / Energie om terug te geven aan zichzelf, aan de Aarde / het Fysieke door zichzelf te baren, adem voor adem. Totdat we allen terugkeren tot onszelf, tot de Aarde / het Fysiek en Leven baren - een fysiek bestaan waar allen in feite in / als gelijkheid en eenheid leven.
vrijdag 23 maart 2012
2012: My Experience with the System of Giving Up (DIP Assignment 8)
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So, giving up exists of the mind for you to ‘test’ yourself in your effectiveness and statement and action, and application, and awareness of you. So, therefore, if you allow yourself to give up, what does that mean? Your effectiveness, your statement, your application has not been effective, because you have accepted and allowed yourself to be controlled and consumed by the ‘experience’ of wanting to give up and then you did give up. - Desteni Universe 2007
Writing about My Experience with the System of Giving Up.
So yes within the last week I experienced quite a lot this system of giving up. I had been working inside the house for the whole of the winter, mostly working in the matrix or on the computer and now at the end of the winter it just got me to the throat. . The winter where I can not escape my emotions and have to face them. Several moments of certain events
of people getting very nasty to me on Facebook were the possibilities- ‘doors’- for me to walk through.
This system intertangles somewhere also with the previous system I looked into - the procrastination system. Giving up I experienced extremely in 2008 to the extend that I wanted a wheelchair: I didn’t walk to move me - everything I had compounded within me that much. This was me facing me where I had myself allowed and accepted to not stand up within myself the ten years prior to that point. It resembled the clinical picture of rheumatism (trauma) where my thoughts had deposited within my human physical body as ‘acids’ better to be understood as crystals. My fears = self interest from all of my lives are being brought here to face. So - I have to walk through them bones / points till I stand no matter what.
An anecdote from my childhood. When I would lay at bed at night as a child I heard my parents argue and I was always - really always - wondering / fearing they were talking about me, how bad I was etc.. But that’s not it - I had studied on a lot of the human mind things for decades to solve what was the matter. When children experience fear - I read -- they will take it as their fault as it is better to feel / experience the guilt then to have to face the fact they can sent away / rejected. That parents argue (people in general) because they don’t want to see themselves in eachother was me a great liberation and I would share this with as many people as I could.
So - all these moments from birth on till 7 are I have captured within my body called physical mind and to free my body from these crystallizations I walk the Desteni I process. Now facing the giving up systems - to remove them through self forgiveness for giving up on myself. Working on myself: my effectiveness, my statement, my application to become effective. I have a personality / ego that would rather give up on myself that the other but that’s the same / equal - the other is me. Thus - I pulled myself up on the other causing this hopping from one leg to the other instead of standing firm on my own two legs. My condition to not even express myself when I though someone would get mad I could cope until five years ago where I no longer would keep my mouth shut. So -also all those moment of my lives where I would within anticipation / fear / self interest be
The giving up comes more from my father system and feel it actually within the right part of my body - my right leg ‘does not want’ to come along. Very ineffective though I do not yet realise what is exactly: I can only walk through within the breath of me.
As also in previous process blogs all the cases I placed my attention / life onto my partner I’d have to stand up myself cause life is no longer allowing and accepting me to do so, but it had been such a strong egomechanics within me the past fifteen years, that I resent myself for being such an ass to cycle around in my own limitations knowingly that is not life - how extremely frustrating is knowledge when / if I cant apply it.
I now allow myself to cry when being faced with a point I had suppressed (advise I got from Andrea from Desteni). To watch out not to cry as feeling sorry for myself because that would keep the system in place.
Thoughts I can identify within my writing:
I tend to give up when someones gets angry with me.
I don’t want to move me.
I think it’s my fault when people get angry with me.
I think I have to go away when someone is angry with me.
Thought I’ll be working with:
I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me.
Other components:
Emotions:
Fright
Words:
Paralysis
Thought-construct:
Trigger point of the thought:
When someone get pissed about what I say or write
Type of thought:
Giving up.
Self-Forgiveness:
Self-Forgiveness on the thought:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me instead of realising to stay here as breath as all as one as equal.
Self-Forgiveness on the trigger point of the thought:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to connect when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me instead of realising I stop my reactions and breath.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to exist as a trigger point within me, which triggers the thought that I have to go stop and go away when someone is angry with me.
Self-Forgiveness on the type of thought:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to want to give up.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be consumed by the energetic experience of the mind, which created the experience of wanting to give up.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed and accepted to apply myself effectively in every moment and thus the door of self-transcendence as giving up stands here before me - now I have to decide whether I will stand or fall within this experience of giving up before me.
I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to accept and allow wanting to give up within my world.
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to accept wanting to give up within me.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that if I accept and allow to give myself up here, everything and all that I have done in the past will come back tenfold and I will have to stand up again.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted fears and doubt to direct me instead of me directing myself.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to give my power away to fears and doubts , accepting and allowing myself to believe that the experience of wanting to give up is ‘more than ‘and ‘more powerful’ than me.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to believe that I would rather conform and compromise than facing myself and my world.
I forgive myself that have allowed and accepted myself to want to give up when I am being faced with communication on Facebook when people get pissed at me / my words.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to want to give up within the living together with my partner / others.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to give up on my partner / others / existence.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to give up in the moments that anyone talks to me about things / world will not get in order.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to give up on myself when I am not feeling adequate to direct myself within violent / abusive communications on the internet.
Self-Corrective Statements:
When and as I realise myself the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me instead of realising I can just stay here in and as breath as all as one as equal - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me, because I realise myself I can just stay here in and as breath as all as one as equal. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself connecting when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to connect when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to the thought that I have t stop and go away when someone is angry with me, because I realise myself that I have to stop my reactions and breathe. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I realise myself when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to exist as a trigger point within me, which triggers the thought that I have to go stop and go away when someone is angry with me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to exist as a trigger point within me, which triggers the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself want to give up - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to want to give up, because I realise I can not really give myself up. Instead - I direct myself within statements of myself as self-assertion, self-strength and self-will to stand here unconditionally as life.
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When and as I see myself being consumed by the energetic experience of the mind, which created the experience of wanting to give up - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to be consumed by the energetic experience of the mind, which created the experience of wanting to give up, because I realise I am not being self-assertive, but being directed by thoughts and emotions. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I realise myself that I do not apply myself effectively in every moment- I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to not apply myself effectively in every moment and thus the door of self-transcendence as giving up stands here before me - now I have to decide whether I will stand or fall within this experience of giving up before me.Instead - I direct myself and walk through these doors as opportunities to transcend my limitations of the mind.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up within my world -I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to want to give up within my world, because I realise giving up doesn’t really exist. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up within me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to want to give up within me, because I realise I am here as life, unconditionally. Instead - I direct myself standing up within myself with the statements of assertiveness, strength and will.
When and as I realise that I accept and allow myself to give myself up here - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to give myself up here, because I realise everything and all that I have done in the past will come back tenfold and I will have to stand up again. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I realise fears and doubt to direct me instead of me directing myself - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself fears and doubts to direct me instead of me directing me, because I realise I ma not living me, but a system. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself give my power away to fears and doubts , accepting and allowing myself to believe that the experience of wanting to give up is ‘more than ‘ and ‘more powerful’ than me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to give my power away to fears and doubts, accepting and allowing myself to believe that the experience of wanting to give up is ‘more than ‘ and ‘more powerful’ than me , because I realise I am not being self directive, but being directed my thoughts and emotions. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself believe that I would rather conform and compromise than facing myself and my world - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to believe that I would rather conform and compromise than facing myself and my world, because I realise that it is actually liberating facing myself. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and a I see myself wanting to give up when I am being faced with communication on Facebook or Youtube - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself wanting to give up when I am being faced with communication on Facebook or YouTube, because I realise I can apply myself within words towards equality. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up within the living together with my partner / others - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself wanting to give up the living together with my partner / others, because I realise I can not give up on life - it is here . Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up on my partner / others / existence - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself wanting to give up on my partner / others / existence, because I realise giving up on my partner / others / existence is giving up on myself. Instead - I direct myself here as breath and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up in the moments that anyone talks to me about things / world will not get in order - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself wanting to give up in the moments that anyone talks to me about things / world will not get in order, because I realise that these moment are here for me to transcend myself. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself giving up on myself when I am not feeling adequate to direct myself within violent / abusive communications on the internet - I stop, I breathe - I do not accept and allow myself to give up on myself when I am not feeling adequate to direct myself within violent / abusive communications on the internet, because I realise I have to become adequate as a process. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
The emotion:
Specific type / ‘shade’ of emotion:
Freeze
Reason for connecting thought to emotion:
I realise that I am ‘stuck‘ within my current experience and that there is no other solution to solve what is bothering me then me specifying here specifying my Self Forgiveness.
Getting afraid someone is coming after me to let me pay / level.
Self-Forgiveness:
Self-Forgiveness on emotion:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to connect the thought I think I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of fright.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define myself to fright as what I am.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to participate in fright towards applying myself here as life.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react in / with fright in the moment I want to give up.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to stop breathing when I am going into an emotional experience of fright.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to resent myself for being such an ass to cycle around in my own limitations knowingly that is not life.
Self-Forgiveness on type / ‘shade’ of emotion:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to connect the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of freezing.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to participate within an emotional experience of freezing.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to experience freezing.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to connect ‘freezing’ to fright - and thus I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fright my own fright.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be frozen.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to become actually frozen of my emotions / reactions.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define myself as cold as what I am.
Self-Forgiveness on connecting thought with emotion:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be ‘stuck ‘within my current experience.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react in / with fright when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me instead of realising to stay here as breath as the physical substance.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react with freezing when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to go into an emotional experience of freezing because I think it’s the end of the world and I am dying when the thought comes up that I have stop and go away when someone is angry with me.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to experience freezing because I realise that there is no quick solution that will make everything better and will solve everything that is bothering me.
Self-Corrective Statements:
When and as I see myself connecting the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of fright - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to connect the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of fright, because I realise that someone being angry with me does not define who I am or say anything about me. Instead - I direct myself to stay here as breath and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself reacting to someone being angry / pissed / aggressive etc. to me with freezing not moving myself - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to react to someone being angry / pissed / aggressive to me with freezing / not moving myself, because I realise I am not moving me, but I a being directed by my reaction of fear to another. Instead - I direct myself to stay here as breath and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself participating in fright towards applying myself here as life - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to participate in fright towards applying myself here as life, because I realise I am frightened of my own fright. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself reacting in / with fright in the moment I want to give up - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to react in / with fright in the moment I want to give up., because I realise I ca not give myself up - I am here. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself connecting the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of freezing - I Stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to connect the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of freezing, because I realise I am nit being self directed, but I ma being directed by thoughts and emotions. Instead - I direct myself to stay firmly here as breath.
When and as I see myself resenting myself for being such an ass to cycle around in my own limitations knowingly that is not life - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to
resent myself for being such an ass to cycle around in my own limitations knowingly that it is not life, because I realise I am limiting myself within holding onto memories of myself. Instead - I direct myself here as life as one as equal as all and take responsibility for the letting go of the memories of myself.
When and as I see myself participating within an emotional experience of freezing - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to participate within an emotional experience of freezing, because I realise . Instead - I face myself and direct myself here within physical breathing as all as one as equal.
When and as I forgive see myself experiencing freezing - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to experience freezing. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself connecting ‘freezing’ to fright - and thus when and as I realise myself to fright my own fright - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to connect ‘freezing’ to fright - and thus I do not allow and accept myself to fright my own fright. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I realise myself to be frozen - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to be frozen, because I realise I am not moving myself as me. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself becoming actually frozen of my emotions/ reactions - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to become actually frozen of my emotions / reactions., because I realise I counteract the exact same thing I fear. Instead - I embrace my reaction / emotion and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me..
When and as I see myself defining myself as cold as what I am - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to define myself as cold as what I am, because I realise I am limiting myself within my self-definitions. Instead - I embrace myself and change myself form here on.
When and as I see myself being ‘stuck ‘within my current experience - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to be ‘stuck’ within my current experience. Instead - I face my current reality and direct myself within doing what I require of myself to do..
When and as I see myself reacting in / with fright when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry - I stop, I breathe -I do not allow and accept myself to react in / with fright when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry, because I realise that I am being directed by thoughts and emotions and I am not directing myself as all as one as equal. Instead - I face myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself stopping breathing when I am going into an emotional experience of fright - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to stop breathing, because I realise I am procrastinating myself as life within stopping to breathe. Instead - I direct myself here within and as breath and do whatever I require of myself to do.
When and as I see myself reacting with freezing when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to react with freezing when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself going into an emotional experience of freezing because I think it’s the end of the world and I am dying when the thought comes up that I have to go away when someone is angry with me - I stop, i breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to go into an emotional experience of freezing because I think it’s the end of the world and I am dying when the thought comes up that I have stop and go away when someone is angry with me, because I realise it’s the thought that is freezing my physical. Instead - I face myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When an as I see myself experiencing freezing because I realise that there is no quick solution that will make everything better and will solve everything that is bothering me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to experience freezing because I realise that there is no quick solution that will make everything better and will solve everything that is bothering me. Instead - I take one step at the time.
Redefining word:
a.
a loss or impairment of voluntary movement in a body part, caused by injury or disease of the nerves, brain, or spinal cord.
b.
a disease characterized by this, especially palsy.
2.
a state of helpless stoppage, inactivity, or inability to act: The strike caused a paralysis of all shipping.
Origin:
before 1150; < Latin < Greek parálysis, equivalent to paraly-, var stem of paralȳ́ein to loosen (i.e., disable) on one side ( para- para-1 + lȳ́ein to loosen) + -sis -sis; replacing Middle English paralisi ( e ) < Old French < Latin, as above; replacing late Old English paralisin (accusative) < Latin, as above; compare palsy
Related forms
non·pa·ral·y·sis, noun, plural -ses.
sem·i·pa·ral·y·sis, noun, plural -ses.
Dictionary.com
Paral = peril = fear
New definition:
Paralysis is the experience of stoppage of th mind in which I can stand up within myself as all as one as equal.
"Giving up is something everyone will face. The ego is all we have known from birth. Ego dependence is like our dependency on oil in the economic system where we fear to starve if we do not abide by the rules and make a living. Therefore we must make sure we do make a living while we work for change so that we do not ...end up giving up. The mind is at the moment more powerful than the physical and have imposed its illusions even into the physical as objects and products with which to entice and keep the ego happy—therefore the pursuit of happiness and the total disregard for life. Who will stand and who will fall? You decide and must live with what you decide. From this there is no escape."
"Love - to not give up on yourself or others/existence - but willing to stand no matter what, to not accept and allow anything less than the principle of/as what's best for all and be willing to take the risks/actions necessary to get this done." - Sunette Spies
So, giving up exists of the mind for you to ‘test’ yourself in your effectiveness and statement and action, and application, and awareness of you. So, therefore, if you allow yourself to give up, what does that mean? Your effectiveness, your statement, your application has not been effective, because you have accepted and allowed yourself to be controlled and consumed by the ‘experience’ of wanting to give up and then you did give up. - Desteni Universe 2007
Writing about My Experience with the System of Giving Up.
So yes within the last week I experienced quite a lot this system of giving up. I had been working inside the house for the whole of the winter, mostly working in the matrix or on the computer and now at the end of the winter it just got me to the throat. . The winter where I can not escape my emotions and have to face them. Several moments of certain events
of people getting very nasty to me on Facebook were the possibilities- ‘doors’- for me to walk through.
This system intertangles somewhere also with the previous system I looked into - the procrastination system. Giving up I experienced extremely in 2008 to the extend that I wanted a wheelchair: I didn’t walk to move me - everything I had compounded within me that much. This was me facing me where I had myself allowed and accepted to not stand up within myself the ten years prior to that point. It resembled the clinical picture of rheumatism (trauma) where my thoughts had deposited within my human physical body as ‘acids’ better to be understood as crystals. My fears = self interest from all of my lives are being brought here to face. So - I have to walk through them bones / points till I stand no matter what.
An anecdote from my childhood. When I would lay at bed at night as a child I heard my parents argue and I was always - really always - wondering / fearing they were talking about me, how bad I was etc.. But that’s not it - I had studied on a lot of the human mind things for decades to solve what was the matter. When children experience fear - I read -- they will take it as their fault as it is better to feel / experience the guilt then to have to face the fact they can sent away / rejected. That parents argue (people in general) because they don’t want to see themselves in eachother was me a great liberation and I would share this with as many people as I could.
So - all these moments from birth on till 7 are I have captured within my body called physical mind and to free my body from these crystallizations I walk the Desteni I process. Now facing the giving up systems - to remove them through self forgiveness for giving up on myself. Working on myself: my effectiveness, my statement, my application to become effective. I have a personality / ego that would rather give up on myself that the other but that’s the same / equal - the other is me. Thus - I pulled myself up on the other causing this hopping from one leg to the other instead of standing firm on my own two legs. My condition to not even express myself when I though someone would get mad I could cope until five years ago where I no longer would keep my mouth shut. So -also all those moment of my lives where I would within anticipation / fear / self interest be
The giving up comes more from my father system and feel it actually within the right part of my body - my right leg ‘does not want’ to come along. Very ineffective though I do not yet realise what is exactly: I can only walk through within the breath of me.
As also in previous process blogs all the cases I placed my attention / life onto my partner I’d have to stand up myself cause life is no longer allowing and accepting me to do so, but it had been such a strong egomechanics within me the past fifteen years, that I resent myself for being such an ass to cycle around in my own limitations knowingly that is not life - how extremely frustrating is knowledge when / if I cant apply it.
I now allow myself to cry when being faced with a point I had suppressed (advise I got from Andrea from Desteni). To watch out not to cry as feeling sorry for myself because that would keep the system in place.
Thoughts I can identify within my writing:
I tend to give up when someones gets angry with me.
I don’t want to move me.
I think it’s my fault when people get angry with me.
I think I have to go away when someone is angry with me.
Thought I’ll be working with:
I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me.
Other components:
Emotions:
Fright
Words:
Paralysis
Thought-construct:
Trigger point of the thought:
When someone get pissed about what I say or write
Type of thought:
Giving up.
Self-Forgiveness:
Self-Forgiveness on the thought:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me instead of realising to stay here as breath as all as one as equal.
Self-Forgiveness on the trigger point of the thought:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to connect when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me instead of realising I stop my reactions and breath.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to exist as a trigger point within me, which triggers the thought that I have to go stop and go away when someone is angry with me.
Self-Forgiveness on the type of thought:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to want to give up.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be consumed by the energetic experience of the mind, which created the experience of wanting to give up.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed and accepted to apply myself effectively in every moment and thus the door of self-transcendence as giving up stands here before me - now I have to decide whether I will stand or fall within this experience of giving up before me.
I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to accept and allow wanting to give up within my world.
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to accept wanting to give up within me.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that if I accept and allow to give myself up here, everything and all that I have done in the past will come back tenfold and I will have to stand up again.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted fears and doubt to direct me instead of me directing myself.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to give my power away to fears and doubts , accepting and allowing myself to believe that the experience of wanting to give up is ‘more than ‘and ‘more powerful’ than me.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to believe that I would rather conform and compromise than facing myself and my world.
I forgive myself that have allowed and accepted myself to want to give up when I am being faced with communication on Facebook when people get pissed at me / my words.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to want to give up within the living together with my partner / others.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to give up on my partner / others / existence.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to give up in the moments that anyone talks to me about things / world will not get in order.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to give up on myself when I am not feeling adequate to direct myself within violent / abusive communications on the internet.
Self-Corrective Statements:
When and as I realise myself the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me instead of realising I can just stay here in and as breath as all as one as equal - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me, because I realise myself I can just stay here in and as breath as all as one as equal. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself connecting when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to connect when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to the thought that I have t stop and go away when someone is angry with me, because I realise myself that I have to stop my reactions and breathe. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I realise myself when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to exist as a trigger point within me, which triggers the thought that I have to go stop and go away when someone is angry with me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself when someone gets pissed about what I say or write to exist as a trigger point within me, which triggers the thought that I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself want to give up - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to want to give up, because I realise I can not really give myself up. Instead - I direct myself within statements of myself as self-assertion, self-strength and self-will to stand here unconditionally as life.
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When and as I see myself being consumed by the energetic experience of the mind, which created the experience of wanting to give up - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to be consumed by the energetic experience of the mind, which created the experience of wanting to give up, because I realise I am not being self-assertive, but being directed by thoughts and emotions. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I realise myself that I do not apply myself effectively in every moment- I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to not apply myself effectively in every moment and thus the door of self-transcendence as giving up stands here before me - now I have to decide whether I will stand or fall within this experience of giving up before me.Instead - I direct myself and walk through these doors as opportunities to transcend my limitations of the mind.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up within my world -I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to want to give up within my world, because I realise giving up doesn’t really exist. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up within me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to want to give up within me, because I realise I am here as life, unconditionally. Instead - I direct myself standing up within myself with the statements of assertiveness, strength and will.
When and as I realise that I accept and allow myself to give myself up here - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to give myself up here, because I realise everything and all that I have done in the past will come back tenfold and I will have to stand up again. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I realise fears and doubt to direct me instead of me directing myself - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself fears and doubts to direct me instead of me directing me, because I realise I ma not living me, but a system. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself give my power away to fears and doubts , accepting and allowing myself to believe that the experience of wanting to give up is ‘more than ‘ and ‘more powerful’ than me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to give my power away to fears and doubts, accepting and allowing myself to believe that the experience of wanting to give up is ‘more than ‘ and ‘more powerful’ than me , because I realise I am not being self directive, but being directed my thoughts and emotions. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself believe that I would rather conform and compromise than facing myself and my world - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to believe that I would rather conform and compromise than facing myself and my world, because I realise that it is actually liberating facing myself. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and a I see myself wanting to give up when I am being faced with communication on Facebook or Youtube - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself wanting to give up when I am being faced with communication on Facebook or YouTube, because I realise I can apply myself within words towards equality. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up within the living together with my partner / others - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself wanting to give up the living together with my partner / others, because I realise I can not give up on life - it is here . Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up on my partner / others / existence - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself wanting to give up on my partner / others / existence, because I realise giving up on my partner / others / existence is giving up on myself. Instead - I direct myself here as breath and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up in the moments that anyone talks to me about things / world will not get in order - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself wanting to give up in the moments that anyone talks to me about things / world will not get in order, because I realise that these moment are here for me to transcend myself. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself giving up on myself when I am not feeling adequate to direct myself within violent / abusive communications on the internet - I stop, I breathe - I do not accept and allow myself to give up on myself when I am not feeling adequate to direct myself within violent / abusive communications on the internet, because I realise I have to become adequate as a process. Instead - I direct myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
The emotion:
Specific type / ‘shade’ of emotion:
Freeze
Reason for connecting thought to emotion:
I realise that I am ‘stuck‘ within my current experience and that there is no other solution to solve what is bothering me then me specifying here specifying my Self Forgiveness.
Getting afraid someone is coming after me to let me pay / level.
Self-Forgiveness:
Self-Forgiveness on emotion:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to connect the thought I think I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of fright.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define myself to fright as what I am.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to participate in fright towards applying myself here as life.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react in / with fright in the moment I want to give up.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to stop breathing when I am going into an emotional experience of fright.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to resent myself for being such an ass to cycle around in my own limitations knowingly that is not life.
Self-Forgiveness on type / ‘shade’ of emotion:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to connect the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of freezing.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to participate within an emotional experience of freezing.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to experience freezing.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to connect ‘freezing’ to fright - and thus I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fright my own fright.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be frozen.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to become actually frozen of my emotions / reactions.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define myself as cold as what I am.
Self-Forgiveness on connecting thought with emotion:
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be ‘stuck ‘within my current experience.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react in / with fright when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me instead of realising to stay here as breath as the physical substance.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react with freezing when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to go into an emotional experience of freezing because I think it’s the end of the world and I am dying when the thought comes up that I have stop and go away when someone is angry with me.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to experience freezing because I realise that there is no quick solution that will make everything better and will solve everything that is bothering me.
Self-Corrective Statements:
When and as I see myself connecting the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of fright - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to connect the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of fright, because I realise that someone being angry with me does not define who I am or say anything about me. Instead - I direct myself to stay here as breath and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself reacting to someone being angry / pissed / aggressive etc. to me with freezing not moving myself - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to react to someone being angry / pissed / aggressive to me with freezing / not moving myself, because I realise I am not moving me, but I a being directed by my reaction of fear to another. Instead - I direct myself to stay here as breath and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself participating in fright towards applying myself here as life - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to participate in fright towards applying myself here as life, because I realise I am frightened of my own fright. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself reacting in / with fright in the moment I want to give up - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to react in / with fright in the moment I want to give up., because I realise I ca not give myself up - I am here. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself connecting the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of freezing - I Stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to connect the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me to an emotional experience of freezing, because I realise I am nit being self directed, but I ma being directed by thoughts and emotions. Instead - I direct myself to stay firmly here as breath.
When and as I see myself resenting myself for being such an ass to cycle around in my own limitations knowingly that is not life - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to
resent myself for being such an ass to cycle around in my own limitations knowingly that it is not life, because I realise I am limiting myself within holding onto memories of myself. Instead - I direct myself here as life as one as equal as all and take responsibility for the letting go of the memories of myself.
When and as I see myself participating within an emotional experience of freezing - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to participate within an emotional experience of freezing, because I realise . Instead - I face myself and direct myself here within physical breathing as all as one as equal.
When and as I forgive see myself experiencing freezing - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to experience freezing. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself connecting ‘freezing’ to fright - and thus when and as I realise myself to fright my own fright - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to connect ‘freezing’ to fright - and thus I do not allow and accept myself to fright my own fright. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I realise myself to be frozen - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to be frozen, because I realise I am not moving myself as me. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself becoming actually frozen of my emotions/ reactions - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to become actually frozen of my emotions / reactions., because I realise I counteract the exact same thing I fear. Instead - I embrace my reaction / emotion and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me..
When and as I see myself defining myself as cold as what I am - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to define myself as cold as what I am, because I realise I am limiting myself within my self-definitions. Instead - I embrace myself and change myself form here on.
When and as I see myself being ‘stuck ‘within my current experience - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to be ‘stuck’ within my current experience. Instead - I face my current reality and direct myself within doing what I require of myself to do..
When and as I see myself reacting in / with fright when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry - I stop, I breathe -I do not allow and accept myself to react in / with fright when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry, because I realise that I am being directed by thoughts and emotions and I am not directing myself as all as one as equal. Instead - I face myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself stopping breathing when I am going into an emotional experience of fright - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to stop breathing, because I realise I am procrastinating myself as life within stopping to breathe. Instead - I direct myself here within and as breath and do whatever I require of myself to do.
When and as I see myself reacting with freezing when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to react with freezing when I am being confronted with the thought I have to stop and go away when someone is angry with me. Instead - I face my current reality and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When and as I see myself going into an emotional experience of freezing because I think it’s the end of the world and I am dying when the thought comes up that I have to go away when someone is angry with me - I stop, i breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to go into an emotional experience of freezing because I think it’s the end of the world and I am dying when the thought comes up that I have stop and go away when someone is angry with me, because I realise it’s the thought that is freezing my physical. Instead - I face myself and take responsibility for whatever it is that is bothering me.
When an as I see myself experiencing freezing because I realise that there is no quick solution that will make everything better and will solve everything that is bothering me - I stop, I breathe - I do not allow and accept myself to experience freezing because I realise that there is no quick solution that will make everything better and will solve everything that is bothering me. Instead - I take one step at the time.
Redefining word:
pa·ral·y·sis
1. Pathology .a.
a loss or impairment of voluntary movement in a body part, caused by injury or disease of the nerves, brain, or spinal cord.
b.
a disease characterized by this, especially palsy.
2.
a state of helpless stoppage, inactivity, or inability to act: The strike caused a paralysis of all shipping.
Origin:
before 1150; < Latin < Greek parálysis, equivalent to paraly-, var stem of paralȳ́ein to loosen (i.e., disable) on one side ( para- para-1 + lȳ́ein to loosen) + -sis -sis; replacing Middle English paralisi ( e ) < Old French < Latin, as above; replacing late Old English paralisin (accusative) < Latin, as above; compare palsy
Related forms
non·pa·ral·y·sis, noun, plural -ses.
sem·i·pa·ral·y·sis, noun, plural -ses.
Dictionary.com
Paral = peril = fear
New definition:
Paralysis is the experience of stoppage of th mind in which I can stand up within myself as all as one as equal.
"Giving up is something everyone will face. The ego is all we have known from birth. Ego dependence is like our dependency on oil in the economic system where we fear to starve if we do not abide by the rules and make a living. Therefore we must make sure we do make a living while we work for change so that we do not ...end up giving up. The mind is at the moment more powerful than the physical and have imposed its illusions even into the physical as objects and products with which to entice and keep the ego happy—therefore the pursuit of happiness and the total disregard for life. Who will stand and who will fall? You decide and must live with what you decide. From this there is no escape."
Bernard Poolman
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