Follow-up on: Share on doing Self forgiveness with Parents and/with Children becoming equal and one as all here

First writing on topic

By telling I can realise myself in it


The actual sharing happened wednesday a week ago here. I never spoke them 'live' or even saw him before - the female I had seen once a few years ago with the mutual friend. They are not 'strangers' to me - they are equal as me and in that just facing my own fears, because in calling others strangers you're in fact a stranger to yourself.
Anyway, just before and on arrival I got nervous, did self forgivenesses on it, breathed and said so to them in the hallway. I simply shared I was nervous and it was ok that I was nervous - I got a thank you for sharing this. Haha. So while making coffee, tea and putting the sun flowers in a vase the male being and I explored what topic to take on first while 'his wife' was in the living room with the child - he was standing in the kitchen door opening to the garden and opened self immediately the topic of forgiveness and lay his understanding of it before me. OK he was directing - cool, practical, no dancing around matters - 'i love it'. He mentioned words like church and such in relation to forgiveness, saying not seeing the point in a way - while I was listening getting the things done. By the time we arrived sitting down I had figured a bit out how to start explain the common sense of the tool / solution of self forgiveness to release reaction patterns. In a matter of minutes he understood on the hand of the same situation happening over and over with the deputy in the school where he is a ganitor. Due to not being able to change self he saw that self forgiveness and self corrective actions would make him not to react in the same manner each time. The female being already saw / understood the 'logic' behind it because she more understands / experienced thoughts, feelings and emotions are program and not who we are. 
Sharing in openness we enjoyed ourselves - quite a lot revealing on the inside /outside I kept in breath, because to me a male being opening up in being aware of himself is a revelation to me. Very moving - I still don't know exactly how this works - still working through my mind programming, my past time line correction. My pointers nobody daring opening up in the house I grew up in - at most fear - only covering all up with love = draw a veil over things. Father figure not being able to take self responsiblity for his 'feelings' - so we / me tiptoeing around...

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to tiptoe around my fathers feelings and thus creating the s(h)ame in myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to expect resistance on (these) matters and in that create resistance in me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to ask the female being if she had seen and done the self forgiveness on female ego.

I am allowed to email them and started sharing an overview of the main points of our gathering:

• Living in Self Honesty equal and one as all here in practical appliance in every moment.

• Self forgiveness when a thought, feeling and/ or emotion of the mind is coming up in you to so immediately stop  participating in the mind and in that feeding the mind system.

• Focussing on every breath here, to stay here as breath and to realise that all that is real is you being here in every moment of breath that whatever goes around in your head as the mind is not real.
• Writing because with writing you assist and support you through seeing yourself right in front of you in words and through when you write - if emotions, feelings, thoughts and/or memories coming up - you apply self forgiveness.

At the end the intro on self honesty, self forgiveness and self correction I shared two formats to put thoughts, feelings and emotions into and release self.

1) I forgive myself that I have allowed amd accepted myself...


2) I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise...



Three and a half hours we were discovering all kinds.
The female being constantly said it's all about words. [In the beginning was the word...] Probably that's what she picked up from Jesus as I did - maybe I will ask her. I suggested her to start applying self forgiveness on fear of programming the child. Lol she wanted to get rid of 'doing likeable' / sweeten all the time - keeping the other appeased. Becoming constant.

Suggestion to read on:

There you have the family pyramid

schemes through which money is created

and through which the Capitalist System functions

http://andrearossouw1.blogspot.com/

We opened the topic of sex and fear of penetration (laughter) - which is one of my main sorting outs a.s.a.p.. I had just been translating 'Masturbation & Ascension: Give yourself a helping hand to heaven' into dutch. Therefor I gave them some pointers on this one. And they shared not needing much sex - as in my relationship it's more about doing it / thinking having to do it for the other etc.. Many points round about. She asked him if he need more than three times a year. "Maybe we ought to have more sex". He said no not really. Also depends on wether having sex on a thought / picture or physical. I can not see the point of physical sex at the moment in my process though. I first have to delete all (fear of) pictures.

O yes, about writing out - it is to get all the threads 'DNA' out - as I do here.



Release of the "rotten feeling" I want she said as we all want.

Breaking through the endless cycles of life -  self breaking through.

Stop self denial.

Research material www.desteni.co.za

Dutch site www.desteni.net

Money Revolution is the Beginning! www.equalmoney.org

Self realisation with income plan www.desteniiprocess.com

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In return I was invited to one of her belly dance workshops which I practised last wednesday evening - 'getting physical / in our body'. Great! This was the opposite 'direction' of classical ballet programming I did - here in her lesson we had to go feet pushing 'into the ground'. Her Cesar therapy helped me back ;-)