Daily diabolic diaries
I am here sitting again and can't seem to get what I want to write out in written nor spoken words in a structured way, yet. This is frustrating me enormously. I just write here - stop self judging. Going through the day doing stuff there are as allways a number of self realisations and / or general topics I'd like to write out of myself, but it circles only in my head. Therefor I stop suppressing myself as who I really am - no mind.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to suppress myself in such a way that I can not write myself out in every moment in a way I am at ease with myself.
Well - this'll be the (in)famous "Eye of the needle" - I have to really push myself through these points - self forgiveness, self correction, self managements of time and space, breathing, vlogging, writing, physical activities.
I stop my ego wants it all kNOW. The physical need to know nothing (see other on this blog).
Excerpt from Osho: Isolation
Let's take an example to explain. Let's say you had a certain a task - a certain task to fulfill - and within yourself, you had a certain, particular expectation to fulfill that particular task; and because you couldn't live up to your own expectation of you with regards to fulfilling this particular, specific task, which you projected into the future, you gave up on yourself within yourself. And because you gave up on yourself and judged yourself and accepted and allowed yourself to be disappointed in you, you went into an experience of hopelessness and helplessness - meaning, the belief that it's too late, “I’ve fucked up, I cannot and will not move me/will me to fulfill the task at hand” - and then what occurs is you literally retreating inside yourself to isolating yourself actually because of fear, fear of failing again, fear of not living up to your expectations.
The first point of separation in self-dishonesty, is having an expectation within yourself.
But, have a look at the interesting cycle, because the first point of separation in self-dishonesty, is having an expectation within yourself. Second point of separation in self-dishonesty is projecting something towards outside of you into the future. The third point of separation in self-dishonesty is the belief that failure exists. Failure only exists because you have a perceived expectation of yourself, because of a projection manifested within the future; and then, inevitably, disappointment will manifest within and as yourself because you didn't live up to your expectations and failed according to a belief within yourself; and then, the being disappointed within yourself because you didn't fulfill what you projected into the future of what is there to be fulfilled. And then what happens is a fear is manifested within self because you do not want to experience failure or disappointment within yourself again so, what you do is you throw your hands up in the air and just give up completely and entirely - and then the giving up you succumb to the fear within yourself and then isolate yourself within you and your world.
Second point of separation in self-dishonesty is projecting something towards outside of you into the future.
The third point of separation in self-dishonesty is the belief that failure exists.
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I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be disappointed in me.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be dis-honest with myself in accepting and allowing myself to have an expectation of myself within myself.
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself ...
I am applying Self forgiveness on these old points I am aware of to here help myself clear the mind through deconstructing self isolation / self desolation as family system constructs of the mind. I stop walking ahead of myself - a serious ('Sirius'/ 'Sirians') mindfuck of me. I must simlpy walk / work with what is here - facing the consequential outflows of my mind - stopping, not wanting to be there in the future where I've done more of this or that what I know deconstructing. I am here and I have to realise this is simply a process of Past Time-Line Resonance Correction.
I stop the Knowing - Nosing.
I am patience.
I really have to stop speaking and realise - I am all here, I am breathing, I am God, I am the living word!
I stop participating in anuone's thought, feeling and / or emotion.
Needless to speak for they don't wanna hear...
and I screw me for not breathing as One!
I am responsible for stopping the Design of Verbal Diarrhea in myself as the world.
Needs - needles to self forgive.
No body can free themselves from the mind systems without the minimum of four year DIP course - for we are all pre-programmed slaves to mind consciousness systems - slaves to the rythm of our minds drums.
No where else on Earth than in the Desteni mathematics is being exposed how that it is the mind that is bothering each and everyone of us to really be FREE as self-expression as the Breath of Life here equal and one as all as who we really are.
Birth Self in Self support,self assistance, self direction, self reliance for self trust and self expression - Self Forgiveness and Self Application for the Destruction of the Structural Resonance
To become the silence of sound...
Self realisation --- www.desteniiprocess.com
Research material --- www.desteni.co.za (mathematically proven)
Common sense --- www.equalmoney.org
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